Letting Go

I'm tired. I'm discouraged. I'm overwhelmed. I've been trying so hard to accomplish things under my power. I'm getting nowhere fast. I'm almost at the end of my rope. I sat here...lamenting. I started wondering what it would be like to really let go and let God take over. It seems so freeing. It seems so carefree. Why worry if God's taking care of it? Why beat myself up with worry, concern, and drain all my power fighting for something that God can handle without me? I don't know. It makes sense. I pictured myself just floating on my back in an endless ocean. Relaxed. Letting the current take me where it wants. Without concern. Without worry. That's what I want. But, letting go is so hard for us humans. We think we can do it all without any help. We want control. Giving up control is probably the hardest thing that Christians have to learn. Perhaps God is using this experience to help me see that I need to relinquish control and let Him do what He does best. I don't know. All I know is...it's hard. But, I'm willing to learn.